It all begin in 2001. sigh this girl dat i see called Xiaojun. i saw her n wanted to jus walk up to her n jus tell her im interested in her. However im so shy.Months later i was introduced to her. fell in love together somehow. Had our 1st date on Dec 11. Watched One leg kicking together. Our love was so innocent by den. We never really talked much. Until 2002. So much things happened together within us. Get caught by teacher. Principal. Dm. wadeva u name it. For wadeva happens i follow her to wadeva. I love this girls so much. The first hug of ours was on Valentines day. 1st time in my life i initiated to do something. she was carrying all the presents i gave her n i gave her a hug. i turned around n blushed like mad n i didnt wanna look back. too shy. n de next week on thursday. I gave my 1st kiss to her n hers to mine. IT was so sweet. omg. think of it i oso cant forget. Sigh things went on n on sweetness non stop. baby i didnt gave up on u on de way. No matter wad comes in the way i didnt give up. cos i believe that we 2 belonged together. N wad u did in de pasts. I didnt mind n still wan u to come back to me. cos without u my life is so empty. Haiz. i wanna be a stylist n ure going to be a fashion designer n stuffs. Baobei. Why did u sae those things to me? it hurts so much. i cant eat cant sleep cant even smile. I really need u so much. Dont tell me its an End. Cos if this Ends my life Wants the Same too. You're de only girl out of my ex that i really loved. i started Loving n i could sae the 1st was u. We went through so much, Why did u tell me ur feelings are gone ='( Why dont u give us a chance that when im back den u settle it out? Why hurt me when im abroad when u know ure the only thing im holding onto.I love u so much. Sigh, its such a pain writing this. I miss ur fingers wiping my tears. The hug of urs that heals wadeva wound that i had so dats why when im in ur arms i cry louder n longer. haiz..ure the one dat loves mi most in situations when im at my worst point n best point. im sorry i hurt u so much in the pasts. But now ive changed i really hope u can gimme a chance. If there is anything i can do to win this chance i will. I wanna show u the changed me cos i wanna treat u better. I dont wanna let u down baobei..I jus hope u wont listen to wad other ppl say n judge me how bad i am. Im never gonna harm u. cos all i do is love u give u love. Protect u to wadeva comes ur way. I really dowan u to get hurt. From that day u went for the Run at interschool dat hurts me so much. seeing u fall onto the ground my heart jus came out from my mouth. I wanna protect u. i dowan u to get harm. No matter whichever part in the world i am i still love u. i dowan see u hurt n lying there. Ill be damn heartbroken, in my heart ure alwaes my baobei. My cute cute baobei, xiaozhu xiaozhu zai na li. wo hao xiang ni ya...Haiz. i reli dont care how much ull harm me or wadeva. cos im around ill make sure everything is gonna be alrite for u n me..pls trust me. cos i love u so much. Becos of u i done so much crazy stuff...humble myself sacrifice so much jus to make u happy. Cant u feel my love so real? i dowan any repayment. i jus wan u .thats all. ill never find another girl. cos ill never be nice to them. cos i dont love them. i love u. Wan u. i yearn for u cry for u. Even get down on my knees for u. I never ever kneel down to anyone in my life but oni u. haiz its hurting so much i cant breathe. Tml is my birthday n i alwaes wanted u to be there for me. at 13 i had my birthday crying at home. at 14. theres u. I was so happy with de pres u gave me. U brought light into my world. Everyday i stay late cos i wanna look at u, play bball so that i could be outstanding enuff to let u look at me. Ure the only force thats pushing me to live life. Ure the oni one that could push me to limits of my life. Babe its true. Gimme a chance pls baby. Ill make u my princess show u the New me. Liao jie my feelings...So much words have been hurting me from ur msgs . i cant even breathe a lil bit. My chest is so painful. haiz on my 15 birthday we spent together at East Coast Beach. I loved dat day. On my 16 u werent here bt at least u msged me n we talked over the fone. I was so happy. Came back n spent so many unforgettable times with u. Walking under the rain with u sending u home. Haiz i dowan to u walk away.i dowan to see ur shadow fade awae. I know de lord meant for us to be together. i dowan to seperate with u. When i stand beside u. The world jus falls together again n everything clicks n flows. How i wish i can hold u now n tell u my 1st dream about u n me..REmember ? *Paused Crying* Dere's so much things i wanna tell u share with u. Make u happy. cos ur smile makes mi happy too. i dowan u to land with someone that wont appreciate u. Treat u good like i do. Love u as much as i do. Cos strictly there isnt anyone will do dat. i hope this is not goodbye but starting over. Cos without u. The future of mine will be hell. i know cos the answer is U tat i dont have. How can i be smiling when ure gone ? haiz. What is happy ? i dun remember at all. Its oni in u n WITH u i find happiness den i can smile like im happy. All de song i wrote. None of them are happy songs happy tunes.*paused Crying* Remember the 1st song i composed for u?

I need to talk with you again, why did you go away, All our time together, just feels like yesterday, I never thought I'd see, a single day without you, You see the things we take for grantedwe can sometimes lose. And if I promise not to fell the pain, Will I see you again, will I see you again. Time will pass me by, may be I'll never learn to smile, But i know I will make it through, if you wait for me. And all the tears I cry, no matter how I try. They will ne ver bring you home to me, so won't you wait for me in heaven. Do you remember how it was, when we never seemed to care. Days went by so quickly, cos I thought you'd always be there. It's hard to let you go, though I know that I must try. I feel like I've been cheated, cos we never said goodbye. And if I promise not to feel this pain, Will I see you again. And I miss you so, and I need to know, Will you wait for me.

Haiz The only promised i broke was to not cry. cos i loved u too much. Its an impossible promise. i know now wadeva i sae might not help or work at all. Haiz. What changed u like dat i dunno. i feel so damn bad cos im not there to share with u. Make u feel secured. Not there to feed u..carry u when u feel sick. buy KFC n visit u n kill off ur cravings for anything. N not even there to take Cab to ur house ALLEY n let u see me for 5 mins. Haiz i wanna do dat. Can i? Everydae of my life im so desperate to see u. From the start to forever. It has alwaes been like dat n it will alwaes be. Im so sure becos after 3 yrs my feelings are n IS still there. n v v strong it will burn. Everlasting burning fire of my love wont die. Haiz i pray everynight i pray every dae. i pray whenever im free. Jus to have u back. I wan to adore u. cos no one can adore u more than i do. they cant adore de way u wan it to be. I wanna kiss u cos no one else can kiss like me to u. i wanna hug u cos it jus feels so right to be in ur arms where i belong. I really dowan to lose u in my life. Its impossible to become strangers. Impossible to become friends. Cos from the start till forever. Its couple we belong. AI WO BIE ZOU. RU GUO NI SHUO NI BU AI WO. Bu YAO TING JIAN NI ZHEN DE SHUO CHU KOU ..ZAI GEI WO YI DIAN WEN ROU....

Baobei wo ai ni. Bu guan tian chang di jiu. Wo de xin yong yuan zhi wei ni er tiao. I love u babe.
Loving u is not a crime, Loving u ill never die, Trust me that i didnt lie. I will love u with my life~

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